Venedig

Tadi siang, untuk menyenangkan hati adek gw yang kecil karena emak gw pergi melulu, emak gw nyuruh gw ngajak adek gw itu ke salah satu kafe di deket rumah (tempatnya di Golden Boulevard BSD), namanya Venedig :)

Sebenernya coba-coba sih, cuma tertarik sama tulisan "eat and play" di depan kafenya, tapi ga nyesel juga kesana. Untuk interior biasa banget, tapi dia punya satu pojokan berisi beberapa majalah dan selemari maenan! Bukan robot2an dsb, tp kaya permainan macam uno, monopoli atau permainan strategi. COCOK! gw suka banget maenan begitu :D

Untuk harganya standar ala kafe-kafe begitu deh. Nasgor 19rb-an, steak 30-40rb-an. Tapi yang ngagetin, dia nawarin Sirloin WAGYU 200gr dengan harga 60rb! (kalo di Tamani, gw mikir dua kali deh buat beli... harganya juga ampir 3x lipat juga T_T) Karena penasaran ya wes lah gw coba.. Dan adek gw sukses makan sop buntut sama steaknya. Eh gw bantu comot2 deng (comotnya banyak) hehe. Minum kopi, Aqua, sop buntut + Wagyu steak dan games gratis semuanya dibuah 100rb. Masih cukup mahal sih buat gw yang lagi nabung. tp anggep aja sodakoh deh hehe :)

Cukup gw rekomendasikan lah buat yang pengen makan dengan variasi lain. Gw mulai memikirkan makan malem berdua Abang disini sambil maen UNO :P

ps: gw tadi maen "guillotine" selama nunggu makanan. Mejanya kecil gamesnya harus jejerin kartu, jadi gw harus makan di meja lain. Saran gw kalo mau enak sih, meja dua aja dijejerin biar bisa maen sambil makan/makan sambil maen.. ^^

pss: gw lg males nulis pake bahasa Inggris hahaha

Pampering Myself: A Big Wish

Within these hectic moments and activities, a nice pedicure + manicure, soothing lulur, relaxing reflexy (whether @ the beauty salon/ @ home) or even a simple moments like reading and watching movies together would be something considered grace.

I think I should have some moments that way, just so I stay sane :)

PS: Does shopping for seserahan/pulangan considered pampering myself too? It's kinda fun to pick and choose stuffs :) shop is considered as girl's heaven right? but seeing seserahan list was somewhat shocking. Maybe I'm not the type of a person who ask for something so much. Dad's teaching: giving is better than asking. You give people something, God will give you more. And etc :P

Actually I like to shop, especially shopping for books! But I need to save money and such for the pre and post wedding, so probably I need to hide my credit card, atm card and money somewhere else :P

Scatters from Lebaran 2009

I just love these pictures! Taken by me and my sister with her Canon EOS 400d in the front yard of my granny's house in Bandung.

Super fun moments!

of course, my favorite is below!

My sister captured my cousin's expression in a very perfect moment!

An Nisa 19 and Us

وَعَاشِرُوهُنَّ بِالْمَعْرُوفِ ۚ فَإِن كَرِهْتُمُوهُنَّ فَعَسَىٰ أَن تَكْرَهُوا شَيْئًا وَيَجْعَلَ اللَّهُ فِيهِ خَيْرًا كَثِيرًا

"and treat them kindly; then if you hate them, it may be that you dislike a thing while Allah has placed abundant good in it." (An-Nisa`: 19)

“ Dan bergaullah kalian dengan mereka secara patut. Kemudian bila kalian tidak menyukai mereka maka bersabarlah karena mungkin kalian tidak menyukai sesuatu padahal Allah menjadikan padanya kebaikan yang banyak.” (An-Nisa`: 19)

I am a very sensitive person, especially to people I'm comfortable the most. I might be very strong, very tough for other person. But not to the person that I can rely my self to. I'm such a crybaby. I'm such a person who wants to be spoiled. Maybe because people around me wants me to be their wonderwall, their place to lean on. So, when I found Abang, I feel like I'm the one who s'posed to lean on him.

But I forgot how he has a very hard role in his life.. Has to be a brother, a father, even sometimes the mother when he's in charge at home. I forgot maybe he's tired and wants to lean on me and wants me to understand him, not just me who wants him to understand.

I'm too comfortable with him, I forgot to ask how he felt about me clinging around him and being so dependence on him.

And I feel very guilty... Would you please forgive me? :')

Yesterday, we have this heart to heart talk. Like I said before, marriage preparation makes things a bit more sensitive than they used to.

So, we both are going to try to reduce our minuses and try to understand each other better. We both are going to try to accept each other the way we are, even more than before.

Like the Qur'an verse I posted above, the point is, we might have things we don't really like from each other. But we remember that there's a lot of things we love from each other.

Things that I can't do and he can do, or he can't do and I can do; it makes us complete. That make us stick to each other even when we're very far. That we passed through and will be passed. Like our prayers to each other. Like our dreams we share and our adventure we try to pursue. Like how much he protect me and showers me with love and care. Like how much I love him and his families as much as I love mine. Like how I always wanting him to be happy, and how he always wanting me to be alright and not even sick at all.

There's still a lot more things from us; from each other; which we thank God have given to us.

I think we are going to survive and has this story being lived up to the fullest. Somehow, I am more convince than ever to walk my life with you.

The Power of Istirja

This whole 2 weeks has consumed most of my energy because I gotta take care of this matter. Today, I have some terrible-terrible-terrible problems. I was exploding. Like a bomb with timer. And after that, I can only do Istirja (Innalillahi wa inna illaihi roji'un. Saying people often thought as saying that is only spoken when someone's dead)..

The reason why I often said Istirja is because I believe all the bad things happen, happen for a good reason. My folks @ home also taught me since I was a child, that when I said Istirja, I'd have a good replacement for the bad things that happened.

Like always, today it's proven too. yihaaaa!

I have a new handphone from the office hahhahaha,,,,

and my Abang is veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy supportive and calming :D

yuuuhuuuuu!

God is goood!

I Promise I Won't Complain

I promise I won't complain, even though

my friends are

moving to Japan

studying something I really love

working the job I've always wanted

not considering me as cool

my beloved people

are not perfect

wanting me to fulfill their expectations

my works

make people think I have no life

consumes my me-time

my colleagues

freak out coz they think I'm no help

think I don't have to work hard, I will heritage anyway

believe I can't work

my besties are

seem to drifting away

having fun

my future is planned, before I knew I can actually plan my future

my self is not as stunning as other people

I am thankful of my life anyway. I just love it, no matter how strange it is. I think I'm lucky.

My Auckland-ish Binary Bro

I was tidying up my files and folder on my laptop when I found these pictures.

It's my Lil Bro pictures when he had his 19th B-day. His girlfriend got him a cake, which he ate even though he never likes any cakes haha.. That's what I called as Love Rules Everything :P

The pictures were taken so his girlfriend can adore him when he's afar. But I'm so forgetful I just uploaded it now. (Maaf ya, Lok hehe)

Sigh. Gw jadi kangen.

High Tension

Before I decided when to get married, lots of people told me that the preparation of a wedding is one big mess. A mix of fun, excitement, horror, stress, pressure and hope. with a sprinkle of lovey-dovey and conflict. Abang once told me that when those frictions happen, we both are the one supposed to stay calm. I agree with that, but sometimes things are easier said than done. I kinda feel the tension around is pretty unstable and high. Especially when my work forces me to spend more time on it... Then, I seem to be the person who cannot hold the patience.

Don't know why,,

maybe because when everyone seem to take high-pitched voice tone or being cynical or being doubtful or yelling or getting mad at me, I manage to hold my grudge..

And maybe, I want people to do things I've done for them (pretty much holding up to the sayings: if you want people to do things you want them to do to you, do the things to people)...

And maybe, I need to learn more about fixing myself to get a better me. .

And maybe, I need to start smiling again even though things are complicated and everyone around me are being stressful too..

I definitely have to pray more. Well, if I can coupe with all of the thoughts and the problems that come, then I can get along well right? It's for my future anyway :')

So Called Sports Day

I was doing 2 sports today:

First, Mom+I took a fabrics-hunting sport @ mayestik. Yes, for the wedding kebayas+suits. Thought that we're going to look for mine first, and the rest can wait until the other day.

We go hunting to 2 shops first, one has this 50% discount for all stuffs, one has lots of men's fabrics. Bought 1 for my ceremony and 2 (for reception+ceremony) for my beloved soulmate, Abang (in the end of my day, we just realized that the fabric Abang is going to use for ceremony didnt really match my kebaya fabric. So we decided to borrow it form the make up artist, but we're going to buy the batik and etc.).

Mom was pretty much confuse about the colours of the jilbab for the kebayas, so the guy in the 2nd shop pointed us to this shop called Purnama Tekstil. We ended bought the uniforms for ceremony and reception for our parents, grannies, aunties, sisters, and brothers over there.

We also bought fabrics for my reception. It's my most expensive fabrics, and very much the apple of my eye! I think i'll end up gazing/adoring/memorizing it before have it being sewn. We also being served with cappucinos, croissants, samosas (which they wrapped too so i can bring them home), sate ayam and teh tawar. Definitely my most expensive snacks+lunch. hahaha

Second, I'm swimming!!! yeaaay!!! Abang sms-ed me saying that he didnt quite feel good so he wanted me to accompany him swimming. Right after i came home, Abang pick me up to swim in Ocean Park. never really liked the place, but i think swimming in the afternoon over there is OK. Wasn't too crowded and we can swim in the riverstream pool without any hesitation :). I am so gonna take my Abang for swimming again, I love swimming and I love it more when Abang is with me! ^^

Actually, the reason why Abang was dropping by was because we had our appointment with our future photographer being cancelled because his boss suddenly asked him to accompany the office's client. Kinda disappointed especially Abang drove real far from Jatibening just to meet him @ the very first place. I know he's very tired. Seeing him coming without even thinkin about his tireness reall put me in a very ambiguous feeling. Touched, for he came all the way for the sake of our wedding preparation and for swimming with me, but kinda sad seeing him super tired like that. Probably I love him too much, I'm being over-worried.

Thank God, Dad's fave guy to sew his suit was dropping by to fit Dad+Abang's height so the suit can be sewn real fast! Quite paid Abang's effort to come all the way! :)

It's a nice day.

New Blog and a Sambal Mangga

I think it's fair enough for me to simply share my thoughts without thinking whether people would love to read mine or not. I'm right, am not I?

I think I've started to become the same-old-stressed-out-me between the rush hours of wedding, works, and personal life. I choose to write again in a new place, because:

- blogger has lots of cute free templates

- the arrangement of the pictures i want to post is quite easy for computer amateurs like me.

anyway, today Abang, my soulmate, was dropping by before he went to the campus. and we are experimenting sambal mangga/mango-chilly sauce. of course with chilly sauce made by Si Mbak this morning, and mango being chopped off and mixed with chilly sauce by Abang when we have lunch.

I'm just watching, but I enjoy the moment. And the sambal mangga too :)